woohoo! my sigma brushes came - along with my new brush belt. i bought a couple more things to test out (i.e revlon matte eyeshadows, elf nail polish, etc) i’m going to test most of these things out this sunday. i have a “themed” shoot w/ a fellow photographer instead i’m providing the makeup. i think the idea is neat. it will be held at a local cemetery & arboretum. we’re doing 2 looks - sort of a “angel vs. demon” type of thing, i guess. nonethless i have went over the dark look several times. i have an idea as to what i plan to do, but i won’t know exactly until i have brush at hand & model in front of me. i will provide pictures once they’re sent to me by the photographer.

this upcoming week or so i plan to add some things to my arsenal (photography wise). i need a couple of lenses, and some of the other necessities. i’m getting there guys. i just need to work against complacency, laziness, and fear. it seems so difficult, but i wasn’t given talent just to waste it OR watch others live out my dream(s). enough of that..

i’m going to completely do a cleaning on my desktop - add some ram, & make it productivity friendly. i think i’m going to sell my mini laptop for a 18inch or something. i think i’ll go with HP this time around. still some details to iron out.

i’m thinking of going part-time at the 9-5 in my case 9-6. not sure yet, but it’s something to think about.

i’ll be posting more pictures. sometimes reading tons of text is boring. i know, i know.

i am kind of frustrated with myself. i need to immerse myself within ALL things i want, love, need, etc. i wouldn’t be cocky to say i am aware i have an eye for BOTH photography, & make up artistry. however i need to develop my craft. make it my own, and the feeling of uncertainty would definitely be less. i am always hard on myself. this i’m use to, but i hate the feeling just as if it were new. it’s my NEED to perfect everything. i don’t leave room for err when it fact there should be. i don’t allow myself to be a student, but instead i expect that because i catch on quickly to things i need to be great at it immediately. it will take some time, practice, and tolerance. *sighs*

in other news: my sigma brushes are coming soon. i need to buy a couple of lenses, and finally get my lighting kit. i’ve been slipping, and buying the most stupid crap ever. still saving however